Joyful Learning On A painful Path

Learning can be painful.

The pain that comes from experiencing toxic abuse can truly ache for months. Some would say that acceptance of those feelings and going with them for however long they last is the only way to grow. You want and hope to come out the other side a different person. You will.

Those who have experienced toxic behaviors from others change. They change a lot. Some become a shadow of their former self. The blood and will, the drive to live, are drained from the body. Those people are the unlucky ones.  They are the ones who refuse to learn from the experience. But who can blame them? Sometimes the thick blanket muffles the brain, confuses, and disorients.


Does feeling the pain and re-learning how to live again in a different way carve out a different path for you?

Maybe it is circumstantial as well. If you have come out of marriage intact, that is a bonus. Some do not survive the escape. Some of us who came out alive cry for those we know who, through no fault of their own, never made it to a new morning. A fresh new week, a new life, and a future.


Writing Content S.Lawrence/Vukomanovic (Tiggy Sonya) ©


I wrote this today and will add to it over the weekend.


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